Sometimes, I feel I want to die. Yet I cannot commit suicide. I am stricken with overwhelming emotions. They blind me from everything that is important to me. Friends. Family. Imaginary lovers.

I am trapped behind these walls. Somehow afraid of joining the normal people. People who are working to pay bills. Shopping. Hanging out with friends. Having an ice-cold beer. People who are living.

I want to breathe in the fresh air. To feel the cool breeze on my skin. Yet I shut myself inside. All alone with my dark thoughts.

Sometimes, I just want to close my eyes and drown in a tequila-laced dream.

© Josslyn Rae Turner
Photo © scrollwork

 

 

 

6 thoughts on “Tequila Dreams

      1. Words are all I have to give from afar, my friend. And I want you to remember to love yourself fiercely first. And then, there’s of course me 😉

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  1. I get the feeling. Sometimes you have to be like “FUCK THEM! It’s my life and I’m going to live it!” I’ve wasted so much time in my life worrying about what other people think until I learned I have no control over them or their thoughts. I can only live my life and be me. The hell if I am going to let people’s shallow opinions dictate my happiness.

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